I am numb.


I can feel physical things. I can feel that as i sit on my bed with the window open, that i myself, are warm but there is a cool breeze. I can feel it on my skin. I'm suddenly very aware of how it feels, to say, rub my hands together, so finely tuned as some kind of substitue for being unable to feel much emotionally or recognise emotions.

I came out of the bath tonight and my hands felt and looked old. Old before their time.

Now,...

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Listening to : Air - Highschool Lover

i don't know whether i'm going to blog on here regularly or go back to my myspace blog. i know there are many subscribers there who are chapping at the bit for something to read, as i've not written for ages. i don't know. for now, i'll stick to here.



my ears. my mind. my heart can't deal with vocal words just now. be it...

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it's weird because some things just don't phase me anymore. i don't know if it's my medication (having had the dose changed) that's standing between my thoughts and my feelings,what's real and what's not.at the best of times it can be difficult to distinguish between the two but now moreso.maybe it's temporary but it's like i'm numbed and there's this layer that's stopping me from the usual knee-jerk reaction i would give to certain situations, yet at the same time i'm aware that something is different....

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