Not really in birthday mode..

Yeah so my birthdays on national pirate day which is this friday, both are supposedly fun things but i just cant be arsed.
My mum ended up in the golden jubilee hospital three weeks ago in intensive care after being at hairmyres hospital(i use the word loosely) for around two weeks. During those two weeks she got worse and when she arrived at the jubilee some doctor told me for three days running that there was a fifty fifty chance my mum would be dead in the morning. I appreciated he ddnt beat around the bush but really, no one needs to hear that. they werent going to give her her heart valve transplant as she has got such a bad infection but they changed their mind after giving her dialysis( the irony) and she got her third heart valve transplant on the sunday. She then had to spend two weeks on a ventilator and even though she has woken up she still isnt quite there, she had no memory of her weeding rings or my dad when she woke up, which was horrifying. Having to sit combing the blood out of someones hair while they are on a ventilator is now top on the list of images i need to forget.
She has now been transferred back to the hospital that nearly killed her in the first place, and i cant sit at peace. I have been going to my work through this as i cant afford not to and i dont really sleep any more but i could really do with just sitting beside my mum 24/7 watching that everyone that comes near her is actually clean.
This may be becuase the owner of my work told me that his wifes father just died in hairmyres as they have so much infection.
So yeah, that and the fact that some bastard ruined my mums hair while i was away to the extent that shel probably have to cut it off ( its longer than mine)if i cant fix it today. So if i have very short hair on friday youl know why. If i actually make it out to the note, but i think claire may drag me.
got to go to hospital now, see you guys later.