Alternative Nation - Blogs http://www.altnation.com/forums/blog.php A community site dedicated to the alternative style of life. http://www.altnation.com/ en Fri, 08 Aug 2008 00:34:17 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.altnation.com/forums/images/themes/titanium/misc/rss.jpg Alternative Nation - Blogs http://www.altnation.com/forums/blog.php look for the cooperator http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/echo/19016-look-cooperator.html Tue, 08 Jul 2008 06:23:23 GMT Sorry to disturb everyone. manufacture and export : 1,pad printer 2,screen printer 3,heat press machine 4,periphera equipments which are extensively applied in: 1,plastic products Sorry to disturb everyone.

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echo@cliwill.com ]]> echo http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/echo/19016-look-cooperator.html Fuck Subjects Fuck Off http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/chuck-lidelol/19015-fuck-subjects-fuck-off.html Sat, 28 Jun 2008 02:12:42 GMT Nothing feels wrong. I dunno that anything emotes any response. I feel so naturally cold and outside.

I want to write more. I write a lot but delete and burn most of it. It's mostly garbage I think. I like Smckey Robinson. I need to finish something. I keep working on nothing and nothing ever becomes something. I lack, cohesion and conclusion.

Today I woke up and untied my pink handcuffs. I was told that I was bold and legit unforgivable. I wouldn't forgive me. Shouty and forgotten. No. Cannot. A life change.

Today I woke up and visited town. I had dinner with my mother. It was actually good, not just mundane or moribund as it has been for a while. She was chirpier tonight. I was too. I spoke out loud. I existed which she liked. We talked a bit about my wall of personality. My father, politics, Christianity and terrorism, of all things. I had a good night. I was really glad to see her not through obligation.

I came home, and got / getting / am drunk.

I drink tonight. I can't explain why or to whom. I just, not want or need, but I dunno, I just had some beer. There is no 'Friday' excuse, nor any excuse nor reason lieu. Nor do I feel like I should verbalise one. Why mention it? I don't know.

I don't know. This week I've felt very much stuck. This encompassing feeling of imminent demise and ... collapse, is nothing new nor will it go away. I deal.

This ain't no holiday. ]]> CHUCK LIDELOL http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/chuck-lidelol/19015-fuck-subjects-fuck-off.html the heart turns off and the head tunes in. http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/empty_inbetween/19012-heart-turns-off-head-tunes.html Fri, 06 Jun 2008 22:51:20 GMT I am numb.


I can feel physical things. I can feel that as i sit on my bed with the window open, that i myself, are warm but there is a cool breeze. I can feel it on my skin. I'm suddenly very aware of how it feels, to say, rub my hands together, so finely tuned as some kind of substitue for being unable to feel much emotionally or recognise emotions.

I came out of the bath tonight and my hands felt and looked old. Old before their time.

Now, only if things could reverse the way post-bath hands do.



]]> empty_inbetween http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/empty_inbetween/19012-heart-turns-off-head-tunes.html <![CDATA[it has me crawling out my skin and not getting dressed...what's a girl to do?]]> http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/empty_inbetween/19011-has-me-crawling-out-my-skin-not-getting-dressed-what-s-girl-do.html Wed, 04 Jun 2008 20:27:22 GMT


Listening to : Air - Highschool Lover

i don't know whether i'm going to blog on here regularly or go back to my myspace blog. i know there are many subscribers there who are chapping at the bit for something to read, as i've not written for ages. i don't know. for now, i'll stick to here.



my ears. my mind. my heart can't deal with vocal words just now. be it a song or a person. they're far too sharp and far too real. i'll linger in this limbo as long as i can. i see glimpses of the truth, how things really are and it frightens me so much. i subconciously block it out, not even realising i'm doing it which is something i used to do as a child as an attempt to deal with my depression. stuff it down and sit on iit til next time. the divide i've been feeling lately is that of which i've felt before, not that long ago either. one of finding it greatly difficult to distinguish between what is real and what is happening at an exact moment in time and what has and what has not happened....also the strange de ja vu of having been somewhere, recogninsing a place, face, situation, sentance but not being able to exactly fix a date and time and name to the experience. did it happen in a dream, or has it really happened but the chemicals in my brain are tied in knots?

i feel like the things i do are empty. i'm positive it's the medication that's numbing me.i feel incredibly disconnected from things. a recurring thought i've been having is that i am sick of my life being like this. it's not even a life, it's an existance and i feel like i'm losing grip of even that.



i seem to have this constant feeling of dread lately, each day seems to drag and is just a struggle to keep my head above the water which seems to be rising and rather quick pace.

what i want to know is;

what am i going to do when i slip under the water because it is simply too deep? what will i do when dry land and all the oppertunities it holds are completely unattainble?

what is there for me then, what will happen? ]]> empty_inbetween http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/empty_inbetween/19011-has-me-crawling-out-my-skin-not-getting-dressed-what-s-girl-do.html Wounded by Donna Brizendine http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mia-destruction/19010-wounded-donna-brizendine.html Sat, 31 May 2008 05:54:19 GMT Wounded In the battles of war Amidst The warring fire Souls live on to tell The story Of pungent hell Wounded

In the battles of war
Amidst
The warring fire

Souls live on to tell
The story
Of pungent hell

Faceless eyes
Bombard
Their mind of horrors

Senseless chaos shudder
Rippling
Through haunted clutter

Wounded warriors
Unseen
Scars of hidden hurts

When does it end?
Painful
Fighting is not pretend

In the battles of war
Face off
With endless thoughts abhor


©Copyright
27 May 2008
MahTame ]]> Mia Destruction http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mia-destruction/19010-wounded-donna-brizendine.html Patriotism And War! http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mia-destruction/19009-patriotism-war.html Sat, 31 May 2008 01:45:11 GMT War is an ugly thing, but not the ugliest of things. The decayed and degraded state of moral and patriotic feeling which thinks that nothing is worth war is much worse. The person who has nothing for which he is willing to fight, nothing which is more important than his own personal safety, is a... War is an ugly thing, but not the ugliest of things. The decayed and degraded state of moral and patriotic feeling which thinks that nothing is worth war is much worse. The person who has nothing for which he is willing to fight, nothing which is more important than his own personal safety, is a miserable creature and has no chance of being free unless made and kept so by the exertions of better men than himself. "-John Stuart Mill ]]> Mia Destruction http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mia-destruction/19009-patriotism-war.html I Like Big Cars http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mia-destruction/19008-i-like-big-cars.html Sat, 31 May 2008 01:44:01 GMT I like big cars, big boats, big motorcycles, big houses and big campfires. I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some governmental stooge with a bad comb-over who wants to give it away to crack addicts for squirting out babies. Guns do not make you a killer. I think... I like big cars, big boats, big motorcycles, big houses and big campfires.

I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some governmental stooge with a bad comb-over who wants to give it away to crack addicts for squirting out babies.

Guns do not make you a killer. I think killing makes you a killer. You can kill someone with a baseball bat or a car, but no one is trying to ban you from driving to the ball game.

I believe they are called the Boy Scouts for a reason, that is why there are no girls allowed. Girls belong in the Girl Scouts!

I think that if you feel homosexuality is wrong, it is not a phobia, it is an opinion.

I don't think being a minority makes you a victim of anything except numbers. The only things I can think of that are truly discriminatory are things like the United Negro College Fund, Jet Magazine, Black Entertainment Television, and Miss Black America.

Try to have things like the United Caucasian College Fund, Cloud Magazine, White entertainment Television, or Miss White America and see what happens. Jesse Jackson will be knocking down your door.

I have the right NOT to be tolerant of others because they are different, weird, or tick me off. When 70% of the people who get arrested are black, in cities where 70% of the population is black, that is not racial profiling, it is the law of statistics.

I know what sex is, and there are not varying degrees of it. If I received sex from one of the subordinates in my office, it wouldn't be a private matter or my personal business. I would be "FIRED" immediately!

I believe that if you are selling me a milk shake, a pack of cigarettes, a newspaper or a hotel room, you must do it in English! As a matter of fact, if you want to be an American citizen you should have to speak English!

My father and grandfather shouldn't have to die in vain so you can leave the countries you were born in to come over and disrespect ours. I think the police should have every right to shoot your sorry ass if you threaten them after they tell you to stop. If you can't understand the word "freeze" or "stop" in English, see the above lines.

I feel much safer letting a machine with no political affiliation recount votes when needed. I know what the definition of lying is.

I don't think just because you were not born in this country, you are qualified for any special loan programs, government sponsored bank loans or tax breaks, etc., so you can open a hotel, coffee shop, trinket store, or any other business. We did not go to the aid of certain foreign countries and risk our lives in wars to defend their freedoms so that decades later they could come over here and tell us our constitution is a living document and open to their interpretations.

I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor.

I know wrestling is fake, but so are movies and television, and that doesn't stop you from watching them.

I believe a self-righteous liberal or conservative with a cause is more dangerous than a Hell's Angel with an attitude.

I think Bill Gates has every right to keep every penny he made and continue to make more. If it ticks you off, go and invent the next operating system that's better and put your name on the building. Ask your buddy that invented the Internet to help you.

It doesn't take a whole village to raise a child right, but it does take a parent to stand up to the kid and smack their little ass when necessary and say "NO."

I think tattoos and piercing are fine if you want them, but please don't pretend they are a political statement. And . . . Please stay home until that new lip ring heals, I don't want to look at your ugly infected mouth as you serve me french fries!

I am sick of "Political Correctness" and of all the suck ups that go along with it. I know a lot of black people, and not a single one of them was born in Africa, so how can they be "African-Americans"? Besides, Africa is a continent. I don't go around saying I am a European-American because my great, great, great, great, great, great grandfather was from Europe. I am proud to be from America and nowhere else.

And if you don't like my point of view, tough!


]]> Mia Destruction http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mia-destruction/19008-i-like-big-cars.html How Nostradamus stopped the Randi - Dawkins Corp. http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/davidmabus2020/19007-how-nostradamus-stopped-randi-dawkins-corp.html Mon, 26 May 2008 15:48:52 GMT FINAL DRAFT FOR WORLD-WIDE CIRCULATION: now with EMBEDDED VIDEOS! please FWD all your appreciations to randi@randi.org and richard.dawkins@oum.ox.ac.uk and myersp@morris.umn.edu SEE HOW WE CAUSED THE PRESIDENT OF AMERICAN ATHEISTS, ELLEN JOHNSON, FINAL DRAFT FOR WORLD-WIDE CIRCULATION:

now with EMBEDDED VIDEOS!

please FWD all your appreciations to randi@randi.org and
richard.dawkins@oum.ox.ac.uk and myersp@morris.umn.edu



SEE HOW WE CAUSED THE PRESIDENT OF AMERICAN ATHEISTS, ELLEN JOHNSON,
TO QUIT HER JOB AND STOPPED RANDI'S MILLION DOLLAR PARANORMAL
CHALLENGE:

for randi & dawkins and all the so-called "critical thinkers"

the ORIGINAL *KING OF TERROR* VIDEO.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGsOqPDkIZY

the *MODEL* of mental health:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=zBEbfiaZTfc

"Look at the ANGLE OF THE KEY....see that, see that...."

what an idiot this Randi is.....a REAL CRITICAL THINKER....

Visit:

http://nostradamus-usa.netfirms.com

to see how we stopped the MILLION DOLLAR PARANORMAL challenge.....
watch carefully the consequences of Randi's *idea*.....

For over 40 years James Randi Zwigert (is this even a REAL NAME?) has
had total control over who and how the testing was conducted, yet
despite all this he has terminated the challenge.

The ONLY REASON why the challenge was stopped is because he lost and
refused to pay.
Apparently, Randi likes to break the rules when it serves him:

"14. This prize will continue to be offered until it is awarded. Upon
the death of James Randi, the administration of the prize will pass
into other hands, and it is intended that it continue in force. "

Great force.....it's over......

where is my MILLION DOLLARS, you LITTLE *NO-NAME* FRAUD
PS: Almost Forgot: Love the IRONY of the *BULLSHIT* sign over Randi's
ugly head.... ]]> davidmabus2020 http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/davidmabus2020/19007-how-nostradamus-stopped-randi-dawkins-corp.html Weekend of the usual... http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/veil-of-tears/19006-weekend-usual.html Wed, 07 May 2008 19:46:18 GMT It seems every month I get a little more into the things. I wonder how long before its a proper obsession?

Anyway, Divs report on the weekend (with an amusing photo or three) is here.

http://www.themeparkreview.com/forum...43398&start=20
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ooh, is that a tumbleweed? ]]> Veil Of Tears http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/veil-of-tears/19006-weekend-usual.html Right here Right now http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/strangetouch/19005-right-here-right-now.html Sat, 26 Apr 2008 10:35:14 GMT *With all the things that are going on in my life at the moment i find it quite strange that i feel so comfortable in my life and i tell you what if you had friends like mine then you would be rich I am sure you all are aware that I am playing a gig on friday 30th may at The ferry in glasgow and i... With all the things that are going on in my life at the moment i find it quite strange that i feel so comfortable in my life and i tell you what if you had friends like mine then you would be rich

I am sure you all are aware that I am playing a gig on friday 30th may at The ferry in glasgow and i have a responsability to sell some of the tickets otherwise i wont get payed and thats no good when you are trying to raise some cash for the ep project and by the way its gonna be a good night some of the acts on i have played with before paul duncan interesting fellow with a great talent , and the apsherons and if there acoustic set is anything to go by then they should blow the roof of must remember my water wings just incase they do

i intend to go into the studio end of june or begining of july to record the 4 track ep but again that depends on how well the tickets go for the ferry gig

only time will tell . this is a big step up for me after playing my first gig to a crowd of 40 ish to play a venue that has the room for 650 is i big step but i will do my best and take it from there

last bit of news is some button badges on the way so there will be some freebies given out on the night you only have to ask

so take care and se ya all soon

Keep on keeping on

thom xx ]]> strangetouch http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/strangetouch/19005-right-here-right-now.html Heroes http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mishelle/19004-heroes.html Thu, 24 Apr 2008 00:50:10 GMT Just because its 1:30am, and I need sleep but not gonna, thought I'd post a couple of people who inspire me....

Ross Halfin: Photographer

Hes oldskool, and started it all. I love how his work is simple, to the point and catches it all. No photoshop footering and swanky effects. He's seen them all, and with experience comes amazin talent!

________

Peter Hill: Photographer

His work is pretty recent, a lot of emo and mainstream rock photos, with that new edgy style.
What sticks out about him is that no photoshoot is the same. Some photographers work looks generic after a while, but he puts a theme to every shoot, and every photo is always full of energy and light!

_____

Patrick Ullaeus: Photographer/ Director

His work is a wee bit cheesy and commercial but he gets away with it. Its a specific style and it works. He's really into his special effects and sometimes goes a bit overboard but its his style, and you can spot his work a mile off, which is a good thing. The colours and effects he uses are so vivid and strong which catches your eye, its not that it fits with the genre of music he shoots for, its more the case the music genre has adopted his style because it works!

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H.R giger: Artist

I have been following Giger for years. Some of his works are pretty osbceure and even a bit freaky but again its his own style, and you cant mistake a giger piece. I loved the 'biomechanical ' phase he went through, that style is amazing and so original. the whoe dark eerie theme is what I love best about it all.

_____

Chan Wook Park: Director / filmaker

The koreans always do films best, and Chan Wook Park is a god! No need to even mention the vengence trilogy, which is astonishing, but his most recent release 'Saibogujiman kwenchana ' just blew me away. If you liked the feeling you got from Amelie, then youl loooove this film!!
He has such a grasp on the audience, I dont know how he does it, its very subtle but everyone who sees his work is always blown away!

___

Ok, Iv had enough, bed time. I feel like ic just written a report for college or somethin, oh how i do NOT miss those days!! ]]> mishelle http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mishelle/19004-heroes.html Current 93 http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/rhythm-junkie/19003-current-93.html Tue, 22 Apr 2008 00:11:30 GMT Fucking hell. Just ... fucking hell.

Okay the venue wasn't the best (The Queen Elizabeth Hall), okay the sound wasn't anywhere near as good as it could have been and sure Mr Tibet himself was in an 'introverted' mood BUT what an astounding evening.

He was clearly still reeling from the death of a close friend and that came screaming through in the performance. He was at his squirmy, writhing, soul-baring best and the whole experience was so intense I cried for the entire last hour of the gig.

Despite Om dropping out and missing Baby Dee's set due to boy idiocy I still got far more than I bargained for. Andrew WK on bass, Alex Neilson on drums, Baby Dee playing keyboard and guest appearances from Anthony and The Johnsons and Marc Almond.

I would have loved to see them in a smaller venue but I fear I've missed my chance with that one. A genuinely moving and emotional experience. ]]> Rhythm Junkie http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/rhythm-junkie/19003-current-93.html <![CDATA[i miss things i don't have, and have things that if they were gone, i'd never miss.]]> http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/empty_inbetween/19002-i-miss-things-i-don-t-have-have-things-if-they-were-gone-i-d-never-miss.html Mon, 21 Apr 2008 20:13:17 GMT it's weird because some things just don't phase me anymore. i don't know if it's my medication (having had the dose changed) that's standing between my thoughts and my feelings,what's real and what's not.at the best of times it can be difficult to distinguish between the two but now moreso.maybe it's temporary but it's like i'm numbed and there's this layer that's stopping me from the usual knee-jerk reaction i would give to certain situations, yet at the same time i'm aware that something is different.

in some respects i like the change, i'm more in tune with the fact that people can leave my life just as quickly as they entered it.i know that i'm in danger of going into the extreme end of the scale of keeping absolutely everybody at arms length and being completely closed. i don't want to be that way anymore but to attempt to come out of that mindset is too big a risk. at least just now anyway. i know i'll always be wary of people due to experiences in my past but i know i could do with finding some kind of medium.maybe.

i don't know what to do with myself. i don't know how i feel about everything. i'm in some kind of limbo.



there is one thing right now i can identify, something i can attatch a feeling to. i've found something that is simple, yet complicated. broken, yet beautiful. safe, yet untrustworthy.


what is true, is this person, this place, this feeling, this taste,this sound, this time,this look, this smile, this situation. it makes me feel calm. it makes me feel comfortable and content and i've never had that before. if it went away, it wouldn't matter because i had felt something that was so good.i'd actually had the experience. i've never felt anything like this in my entire life. i've never truly felt like i connected to anything but with this i do.


i am so ready for it to be over. for it to finish and never, ever return. to never feel this way again. i'm embracing it. it could leave now and through the tears i'd still have a smile on my face.

loss is important.allow yourself to lose and grieve.i believe that if you don't, you'll never truly appreciate what you have.



]]> empty_inbetween http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/empty_inbetween/19002-i-miss-things-i-don-t-have-have-things-if-they-were-gone-i-d-never-miss.html The meaning of life, the universe and everything http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mishelle/19001-meaning-life-universe-everything.html Tue, 15 Apr 2008 23:48:26 GMT Isnt this what livejournal is for? Ah well... update: Went to school, got bullied a lot! Went to college, done my HND in digital art, done some pretty cool stuff there. Worked in the Garage and had the most mental 4 months o my life, party mania!! made tonnes of mates, took tonnes of photos of... Isnt this what livejournal is for? Ah well...

update:
Went to school, got bullied a lot! Went to college, done my HND in digital art, done some pretty cool stuff there. Worked in the Garage and had the most mental 4 months o my life, party mania!!

made tonnes of mates, took tonnes of photos of good times. Met Andy, 2 years later had a midget. The coolest wee dude on earth! I cant wait till hes old enough so i can drag him to gigs and festivals and take him abroad and buy him smashin things he can play with!

Started workin at el CrowBar. Barstaff, boring as ever. managed to build up a wee side career thought. Get paid to take photos and do cool things like goto gigs and take more photos. Doing the PR for the bands and events in the bar as well.

Broke up wth Andy, very badly. I dont know when the heartache is gonna end, theres only so much frazzling my head can take!
Started talking to my sister after 3 years of non contact, so good that she is back in my life. I missed my sister so much!

Started seeing George, has been nothing but excitement and fun the whole time. Plus I can tell him anything no matter how honest and bad it is. Theres no demands, no clingyness, no agro, just easy sailing, and its amazing!

not much else, keeping uber busy with work.. and other work.. and keeping Yoji entertained and happy. Hes almost walking, and then we will all be doomed!!! ]]> mishelle http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/mishelle/19001-meaning-life-universe-everything.html drink...a bloody awful thing.. http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/dookinfurchips/19000-drink-bloody-awful-thing.html Sun, 13 Apr 2008 23:19:43 GMT I didnt half get fucked up on friday night!! Anyone getting that drunk deserves some fucked up shit to happen to them, like getting covered in kebab and shaving foam, then maybe like a clothing rack, some beer tins and dirty knickers then lastly a chair....ooohhh wait... i did. I swear once i get... I didnt half get fucked up on friday night!!
Anyone getting that drunk deserves some fucked up shit to happen to them, like getting covered in kebab and shaving foam, then maybe like a clothing rack, some beer tins and dirty knickers then lastly a chair....ooohhh wait... i did.

I swear once i get a copy of the pictures im gonna use them as my tool never ever to get that drunk again. Infact i'll print one of the motherfuckers off and take it with my when i go to future gigs.
That was plain fucking stupid. i kept filling a pint Glass with neat vodka and sours....what the fuck did i think would happen.

Didnt spew though....til the next morning. I gotta admit though, that Mcdonalds kicked my ass...I brought that Big Mac Up on the Bus, I swear i thought it was never gonna come up, fucking thing kept getting stuck in my throat. I swear it's the only food that tastes as good as it did on the way down first time round!!

and so yes I'd say sorry to everyone i pissed off but hell, you all got a good laugh anyway.

ohh wait...sorry to Cheif for setting your head on fire....that was pretty bad!! ]]> dookinfurchips http://www.altnation.com/forums/blogs/dookinfurchips/19000-drink-bloody-awful-thing.html