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Boredom
Posted 24th September 2007 at 12:33am by Hevs
I think I have done quite well in the past 8 weeks not to go stir crazy from boredom but it's catching up to me now. I am officially starting to get bored now.
It's amazing the crap you find on the internet when you are really bored. My mate told me to download Stumble and it's bringing me to a whole new era of internet weirdness. YouTube is keeping me busy, I actually watched video footage of someone having a skin graft taken from their leg and it grossed me out completely. I watched a video of someone having staples removed and I almost cried for the guy.
I was browing wigs on the internet last night. I thought that I might as well get my head shaved and get a nice wig. A girl in my office has a wig after loosing all her hair after chemo and her wig is really cool. Did you know you can get real human hair wigs now? I didnt know that and they look really nice but are quite expensive. But I don't think I will bother. I have to wash my hair as little as possible at the moment and when I did it today, my hair actually looks alright, it's growing really fast and I know it will be fine once the treatments are finished. I actually gave myself a row this morning because here I am, had an accident that almost kills me and I'm so worried about how my hair will look. That is quite self centred.
I was talking to my friend last night and telling her what a mess my emotions have been in the last 2 months. I swing from being relieved that I am not dead, to being angry, to being mad at myself and then the world, then I get upset and wonder why the hell this happened to me. Then I go through all the what if I had done this, what if I had done that scenarios. Then I think about people who have injuries like mine who are left with permanent injuries, brain damage and in a wheelchair and I feel guilty for feeling sorry for myself.
It's all perfectly normal apparently, for someone to have been in an accident to go through this range of emotions so I am not actually going crazy, except for the boredom bit and the itchy head which I am told is a good sign of healing.
I did watch my Buffy Box set again which killed some time.
Hopefully the surgeon will give me the all clear in a week or so and I will be able to go outside and do stuff. I have a nice array of hats which I need to try out
It's amazing the crap you find on the internet when you are really bored. My mate told me to download Stumble and it's bringing me to a whole new era of internet weirdness. YouTube is keeping me busy, I actually watched video footage of someone having a skin graft taken from their leg and it grossed me out completely. I watched a video of someone having staples removed and I almost cried for the guy.
I was browing wigs on the internet last night. I thought that I might as well get my head shaved and get a nice wig. A girl in my office has a wig after loosing all her hair after chemo and her wig is really cool. Did you know you can get real human hair wigs now? I didnt know that and they look really nice but are quite expensive. But I don't think I will bother. I have to wash my hair as little as possible at the moment and when I did it today, my hair actually looks alright, it's growing really fast and I know it will be fine once the treatments are finished. I actually gave myself a row this morning because here I am, had an accident that almost kills me and I'm so worried about how my hair will look. That is quite self centred.
I was talking to my friend last night and telling her what a mess my emotions have been in the last 2 months. I swing from being relieved that I am not dead, to being angry, to being mad at myself and then the world, then I get upset and wonder why the hell this happened to me. Then I go through all the what if I had done this, what if I had done that scenarios. Then I think about people who have injuries like mine who are left with permanent injuries, brain damage and in a wheelchair and I feel guilty for feeling sorry for myself.
It's all perfectly normal apparently, for someone to have been in an accident to go through this range of emotions so I am not actually going crazy, except for the boredom bit and the itchy head which I am told is a good sign of healing. I did watch my Buffy Box set again which killed some time.
Hopefully the surgeon will give me the all clear in a week or so and I will be able to go outside and do stuff. I have a nice array of hats which I need to try out
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 |  Buffy cures all |
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