If you should die before me, ask if you can bring

Getting on a bit better with the job today, was by far more focussed on getting things done this morning but I've got a few more things to do and I feel like I'm going to de-rail myself any time now, so a wee break is in order. The problem with having a 24/7 connection in the office (which is unmonitored, because if anyone was going to monitor the office internet useage, it would be... er... me) that you can jump on to at any time, is that it's all too easy to say 'fuck it, I'll do it later', and get a browser window open.

Headache seems to be gone, it was nasty last night for a bit but it's OK now.

Still not really talking to Janette... no idea what's going to happen, no idea what to do. She was at mine last night but it was all a bit strained... I refused to go out for dinner with her, and didn't really talk to her all night, though I did still spend an hour or two typing the 5,000 word essay she has to hand in on Thursday so it's not like I'm being totally heartless. It's just... unexplainable on this journal. Sorry.

Payday today, but no excessive spending on crap for me. Too many bills to pay... gotta make them the priority. I am just about to order a DVD drive for my PC from one of our suppliers though, but that's only a cheap 30 quid effort so it's not like it's going to break the bank. My CD-ROM at home is about to bite the dust anyway, so I might as well. Also got to go out later today and get me a new pair of Docs... the weather would turn rainy and crap just as I rip my old ones, eh? I hate wet feet.

Couldn't get us a practice in before the gig tomorrow... uh oh. It's a wee bit annoying, because I'm actually starting to get pretty excited about the show now... should be good fun. I'm sure we'll be fine... anyway, so far we've had a habit of turning shows that by all means should be complete shambles into successful performances whether we fuck up all the songs or not, so I'm sure it'll be a good laugh. Maybe.

I'm thinking I'm going to try and quit smoking again after tomorrow's gig. Best trying to do it when I don't have big nights out to go to and stuff, and I don't really plan on going anywhere until the 'Weekend Of Rawk' (starting on the 16th with the Therapy? gig) so I might just get away with it. It's f'kin killing me, both financially and health-wise. We'll see.

Got the strangest urge to listen to Stone Temple Pilots today, so I have been.

I also have the strangest urge to go for a pee. I think I might just go do that...